Janus and public speaking

Years ago (I never thought I would admit to this) I used to take communications classes and wanted to be a great public speaker.

That might have worked if I actually liked talking to a large group of people. As hard as it may be to believe (cough cough) I am not that outgoing and exciting. I even bore myself at times.
So I have learned a few important things the last few years.

If I speak on stage I need a podium. If I don't have something to hold on to, I tend to pace or do this kind of swaying around thing like a cobra with a beard. In high school I made a few people dizzy and gave a freshman a seizure from watching me give a speech. So I either have to sit down or hold on to something.

I am not always a good listener. I do have a hearing problem at times and sometimes people have repeat themselves and speak louder. This is embarrassing and makes talking a bit challenging, because most people think I am not listening. I am actually trying to listen, I just can't hear and they talk to0 fast to read lips.

I either am too quiet or too loud. Voice modulation, probably because of my bad hearing. I also tend to get hyper and talk too fast as I go. Which makes my voice get even louder.

I get jumbled if I am not prepared. I change my accents around, I say things backwards, pronounce things wrong, or just say the wrong word altogether.

So bottom line I probably shouldn't run for public office or ask for a stage job. People say if I practice I will get better at it, I figure I will practice at home for a few more years before I try it again.